2006. How did that happen? I've been going back through this blog reading old posts and comments and trying to reflect on the blog phenomena and abortionclinicdays.com for a possible submission to an anthology. (I just published two articles that someone didn't actually get posted. sorry)
Well, dear reader, we haven't posted as much as we might have liked, particularly in more recent weeks. I can't chalk it up to Christmas, I mean HOLIDAY shopping.... It's just hard to do the work and report it and be circumspect about it all at the same time.
I notice that we have done a few rants but mostly we have told stories. Our work is mostly stories and the power of hearing them. Even if we didn't say a thing to women, and men, that would be enough help for them. But the more stories you hear, and the more you can listen to them both in the particular and in the aggregate, it turns out that there are helpful words you can pass from one person to another. Like a non wandering minstrel offering news that others are too isolated to hear. The patients are the wanderers and we just sit there, attentive and connecting where we can.
Two years ago, we had truthfully never even seen a blog much less written on one. We figured that we would give it a year and see what the medium was like, whether we had anything to say, whether anyone would read it. We didn't know what trackbacks and pings were, or how the comments would take on a life of their own.
Now it's 2006 and it seems that everyone is focused on whether abortion will continue to be legal. It's the question that everyone wants my opinion on but strangely, I don't have an opinion. I have always thought that Roe v Wade would not get struck down because of 30 + years of counting on reproductive freedom means that it is in the fabric of our lives to stay. Even Randy Terry, the irritating founder of Operation Rescue said that if abortion was not illegal by 2000 it would never be, because 25 years was too long to have something and then not have it. (Not that he has any inside track on anything.) Now I just don't know. Everything is so wacky.
Part of me would like to see it go down just to watch everyone scramble. All those mealy mouthed politicians would have to step up to the plate and really vote for what everyone knows we need. Of course, the part that knows the panic and misery even a few weeks of illegal abortion would bring wouldn't be worth watching any politician squirm.
Of course, I have that blue state feeling of insulation, but I also don't want to be much busier than we are because then we wouldn't be doing the work that we want to do. When abortion was legal in NY before it was legal in other parts of the country, there were 24 hour abortion clinics and it really was a "mill." Of course, women were less stigmatized and more sure of their decision. But what fascinates me is the experience of it--the complex decision making, how people make sense of inconsistencies and new situations, how people help each other out, or not. It could be about anything I suppose, but there is something about a decision about a pregnancy that brings it all together--life death sex the universe. If I couldn't take the time to consider all that with people I would probably quit.
I don't do New Year's Resolutions, so I can't say, "I will write more on this blog" but we will see where the energy takes us, won't we? Thanks, everyone for tuning in.